.apple sauce.

been trying to rip the cds that i have. guess what i have 722 over songs and counting. wondering which ipod should i get. haha! just wondering will my computer crash after i load all the songs.

today's adventure is apple sauce. waiting for my mum to finish with dinner before i continue disintegrating the apple. if it taste good, i'll post about it again.

i had a little chat with lionel. it is confirmed baby jeremiah is diagnosis with edward syndrome. putting myself in the same scenario, if i had a baby diagnosis with edward syndrome. what would i do?

i always think life expectancy is the biggest lie we can tell ourselves. from the number of cancer cases or hit and run, i think most part of the population wouldn't be living that long.

does it really matter how long we live?

wouldn't it be more important of the quality of our lives?

what's the purpose of this life? other than to live and proceed to the next life.

how should we live our lives to ensure it is well-lived?

i always think is to do good. to spread god's love. if possible to be the image of god to others.

back to the topic, if i had a baby diagnosis with edward syndrome. what would i do? i wouldn't worry so much about my baby. i will be sure that he would be in heaven when the time comes. regardless of the length of time on earth, if he is able to be god's angle and shine the light of god to others - by strengthening the community in prayer. i think my baby would have a well-lived life. if my baby will survive, i'm sure god will provide. he will not give a cross that we can not carry.

in the meantime, i will enjoy the time spent every hour, every minute, every second with my baby. compared to the mothers who are so busy with life, work and etc, and baby die from complications of child birth, - I AM MUCH LUCKIER.

the same theory goes. happy are those who has cancer, they have their chance to say a goodbye. compared to those who die suddenly, due to hit-and-run or heart attack *just like my friend*, they are lucky!