God is love

Orchestra of music makers

I was inspired by the older dude playing the double bass. I never seen anyone truly enjoying playing music. He was moving with the music as he played. Following the rest of the movement while other played. He was truly enjoying himself, while the others (being still students) where functional. I ask myself how many times did i enjoy the music that I played. It was a nice reminder to really enjoy myself while playing for God.

This morning, I finally finish reading the theory book. Frankly, there was so many times, I wanted to vomit. I have no clue what the author was talking about. I tried to start with some assignments for grade 3. But it's really no joke. I was dispirited

I entered mass hoping to find some consolation (i.e. God will be with you, God will give you strength, etc). But, No.

Today, the mass was about the good samaritan. Oh great!

As father begins to explain in the homily. We often look external ,"Who is our neighbour?" instead we should look internally, "Am I a good neighbor?"

It reminds me the same logic. I should look at my attitude. Don't learn theory functionally but enjoy the process with love of music.

I ask myself what kind of music arrange I want to be?

- The kind that spreads the message of love and hope

- The kind that inspires others to enjoy music

For it is not doing God's work that makes us holy or closer to God.

It's is doing things with love that makes us holy and closer to God.

For God IS LOVE

At a time

I am still working on this file - At a time. I really like the chorus: - to be called beyond oneself to love this world. in our reaching out to others, we bring god to others, a moment at a time, a heartbeat at a time.

Lyrics:

It has been a long road

To give this world hope

Leave this safe place

To those who seek God's face

each challenge behold

as god gives the grade

Chorus:

you are the face of god

woman of hope amidst the brokenness of our world

touching lives

your smile your warmth

melts these cold and icy hearts

called beyond yourself

to love this world

a moment

a heartbeat

at a time

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Awaiting in god's silence

I heard this hymn done by Elvina's choir - Holy Darkness.

awaiting in god's silence.

Holy Darkness

Holy darkness, blessed night

heaven's answer hidden from our sight

as we await you, O god of silence,

we embrace your holy night.

I have taught you the price of compassion

you have stood before the grace

though my love can seem like a raging storm

this is the love that saves

in the deepest hour of darkness

i will give you wealth untold

when the silence stills your spirit

will my rices fill your soul.

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It's amazing.

My Kindermusik Days

For now it's quite fun.

of course there are 1 or 2 challenging kids. Like one with learning disabilities. He doesn't listen to instructions. Can't focus on anything. But he is learning. Learning that if he wants to play something fun - he has to wait for his turn.

The saddest thing is to have kids craving for attention. I always feel kind of sorry for kids dying to have attention - perhaps he wasn't given much at home. Yet, I can't give him ALL of my attention, but share it with the rest of the class.

But other than that. It's great! I have time to practice my piano and etc. I guess the flip side is still the major paycut. It's all about managing money and time right now.

my lementation

feeling really stretched. maybe it's because mum's not around. i'm living a double life - trying to be homemaker and work on my music. of-course being a homemaker takes priority. i have hungry brothers to feed.

took a walk at p.s. to get some theory practice books. i was just flipping the grade 8 exam books. i nearly died. in one bar, how many freaking notes are there.

if u have watched alive in wonderland - i can name u one impossible thing: pass my grade 8 in 3 years. frankly, i don't think i can pass it in 8 years.

i'm a little overwhelm with so many things.

1) piano class with daph

2) berklee class

3) kindermusik (practicum)

4) vocal lessons

5) practical theory test.

6) choir

i love doing everything of the above. everyone of which is to help me reach the goal of music arranger. the irony - i spent so much time trying to achieve my goal that i don't have time to live my dream.

it's silent music on this blog until i establish a comfortable equilibrium in my ecosystem.

little star

as i gazed into the midnight blue

stars shine so brightly, they do

i asked, which of the stars are you?

the one over here or there

or the diamond over there

are you looking at me

as i am looking at you?

you are not there in sky

you are not in the stars

you are in heaven

you are loved

you are complete

you are whole again

now rest my soul

you are where you belong

i always known jeremiah as the little star. now that he was returned to the Lord, i somewhat do miss him. often enough i will gaze into the night sky and wonder which star is he. but i know he is not in the sky. he is not the diamond. he is in heaven. loved. complete. made whole. this is the best place that he can be