thank you lord

i had a really nice time yesterday. with the balloons, presents, cake, dog, funny pose. i vaguely remember going to k box once in hk with my friends. i barely remember going to k box in singapore. it was really fun. happy yet envious. really envious. the people who actually celebrated my birthday supper are ppl that i didn't expect.. cedric, janet, andrew, marg, jenny, monica. felt a little invisible. it's so obvious that my love language is quality time. haha!

i understand. i am not somebody's somebody or anyone's anyone. i understand.

counting blessings. i had an extended birthday with today with steamboat. 2 cuisines i love the most steamboat and Jap! for the little surprises i had with unexpected best wishes - i count you twice. the rest, i understand.

preparing for the trip feels like preparing for my funeral. making sure all my bills are paid. everything for the camp is prepared for (as much as possible). making sure the birthday present and christmas presents are given. feels like, booking my coffin and bills paid. when i am not around, hopefully the people around wouldn't miss me to much. feels like it? =) sometimes, i wonder if i am coming back.

haha! joke aside. i really am looking forward to the trip.